Apologies?

Written by: Chereen

Dear you,
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You know, I can’t blame you. You who has been apologized to by people who don’t understand, who don’t care to dissect and comprehend, the real value of a true apology. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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So there you go, you begin heaving every single time an apology is issued. There you go sitting in seclusion out of fear of repetitive intrusions that leave you stressed and depressed. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Second chances are hard to give when you have always been forced to come out with the short end of the stick.
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You understand people well but you also believe in change. This is a good trait to have, but sometimes people want to remain the same. It’s true, it is, that some hearts are blinded. Perhaps the best thing you can do is focus on changing yourself.
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It’s okay that you are cautious about apologies. It’s understandable that they make you feel a certain way. You have a reason when sometimes the word sorry throws you off balance and leaves you distressed. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Maybe it’s time you recognize that people are not all like yourself. Some are good, some are great, and some are not worth the wait. Perhaps a change of perspective to remind you that as a kind person you choose to see the good in people, but you will also choose not to impose particular expectations on others, so as not to come out disappointed. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Maybe it’s okay that you choose to guard your heart and proceed with caution. It’s alright that apologies in the form of words do not cut it for you anymore. Actions that come with time mean more to you now, and that’s alright. You are allowed to choose how you accept an apology. You’re also allowed to decide who is allowed back into your heart’s golden gates. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Bismillah. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀